Maybe its my fault

Firstly, i would like to apologies to anyone that I have make them sad, mad or whatever it is. It is something that i can't bear it anymore that i can't even say to anyone. Now i'm kinda people that lose his FRIEND. Back then it was good to have them. But now, emptiness have come back in my very own heart. Its some pain that i couldn't show it to the others. And this emptiness continuously stabbing my heart. If i can just tell it to the world i will cry loudly through all the earth. Now they seems going far, far away that i could not hear their voices talking to me. If I can just cry like anyone else when they are sad rather than smiling and laughing... IF I CAN JUST CRY....IF..

new SEM.....

it take me just now to write again.. hahahhahaha

owh.. new semester has begin and of course new life..

hahaha.. never though that this will happened.. a NEW life..

but then.. thanks for the memory and experience that OLD life give..

it is the lesson that i cant find it elsewhere..

And I wanna tell people that i wanna b just a friend

A friend that wanna help and care bout a friend..

hahhahaha and of course this moth will b a really busy month..

hahhahaa apriciate whoever read this all... :)

today.. a new adventure..

a new adventure is gonna happen today... there is no reason for me to be so desperate..

God have give what a wonderful life to be grab everyday..

hey people.. can all of you listen to me just a few moment...

i wanna ask you.. why must we judge other,,...?? are we greater than them.. are we better than them... are they bad and we good..? are we..?? but then ... think again my friend.. who we are to judge others.. maybe we see them doing the wrong thing.. but then we don't know either for good or evil they are doing... be strong.. believe in yourself..

I give my hope to God..

Today i have found too many problem... from my friends, my families,

too many until I realize that this world is not beautiful without it.

problem is something that need solution.

People; some strong and some weak.
the strong should help the weak..
But.. AM I STRONG TO HELP THEM...??
I wish there will be no tears of sadness fall down from their eyes..
I wish I could help all of them..but how... ??
I wish that God will help me to help them..
to make all of them will be happy..
God.. help them to be strong..

it is happening again..

why must after years .. I suddenly make peoples arguing by themselves because of me..

it is a bad habits.. and such a stupid things to do..

fool me.. why I must make others mad or sad..

for those that i have make you sad or mad..

i'm very sorry... i never though that this..

is happening again... sorry... its my fault..

how about this

if you miss me.. and if it hurting you... how if i don't say a word..

maybe it can make you not missing me anymore..

for the some people.. just let them ...

soon they will be quiet as quiet as in grave..

just go ..live you ordinary world... but take care.. cause ..

i still keep my feeling..:)

something isn't right

am i a weak person..??

am i a bad person..??

am i a lazy bud..??

no... it just there is something going in my mind that

never make my mind satisfied and

never make me relax..

it just like .. i am not who i am ...

for the past weeks..

hm...

its hard to explain ...

but this is the truth..

i wanted you very much ..

but, i never have the braveness to tell you so..

but, wait

soon, i will say it.. just wait

just 4 fun.. last yeAR IPG choir..

please God help me

baru sekarang dapat menulis balik..

musim yang sibuk memang sedang bejalan,

hati dan perasaan kena kuat, mental mesti bertahan,

tapi ada perkara yang tidak dapat kita tanggung sendiri,

kalaupun kita kuat, kita masih perlu sesuatu untuk menolong kita.

1. Tuhan selalu ada di sisi kita, menolong bila kita perlu dan dalam masa yang kita rasa tidak perlu pun sebenarnya Tuhan ada di sisi kita.
2. Kasih sayang daripada orang lain, kita perlu kasih sayang. bukan setakat daripada keluarga, tapi daripada kawan2 yang lain juga. kasih sayang tidak bermakna cinta, tapi cinta itu adalah kasih sayang.
3. Kejujuran; daripada pengalaman saya, kejujuran itu penting. walaupun sukar, adalah lebih senang jika kita berterus terang. walaupun kadang-kadang kita terpaksa menipu demi sesuatu kebaikan.. kejujuran adalah lebih manis.
4. keihlasan; jika kita membantu dengan hati yang tidak ikhlas, adakah kita tidak membantu sebenarnya..?? tidak, apabila kita membantu, kita telah membantu walaupun bukan dengan ikhlas. Takkan kita tidak membantu bila kita tidak ikhlas..? tapi keihlasan 2 dikatakan lebih baik kerana hati kita akan membantu dengan sepenuhnya dan apabila kita membantu dengan ikhlas, bantuan yang kita akan beri adalah yang terbaik.