Endure Life

lately, many thing happen in life..
mostly sorrow and bitter...
but then, no matter how much the sorrow or the bitter,
there will always be happiness that wash away all the things..

Friends, family and church
are things in my life that will always make me smile
although sometimes, there will be no smile but still,
they can always wash away my sorrow, my sadness away
my doubt and worries are flushed away
and the most important thing,,...

I feel love in the air .. :)
Good night .. :)

Good things and bad things

well good morning

taking some time to update life

before making some lesson plan later on

well, lets go straight forward

the good thing is, 

there will be no more guilty 

and no more fake smile

Its have been settled 

and thank God for that

the bad things is..

friend got into trouble 

forgot to reply an easy message

the they got into trouble 

and I'm very sorry to that .. 

If you are reading this, 

let me treat you someday .. :)

well life must go on .. .

and life should be just once

because once is the pain we will able to bear.. :)

Good morning :)

Fate lies between the clouds

It somehow I managed to remember what I want to write last time
and yeah .. Its morning everybody....
It just the time setting in my blogger is not synchronized with my real time
but for real ? That doesn't seems to be a problem for me

looking back at the title,
nobody knows the future
even the future teller said they cannot see it clearly

we didn't really look at
"what to be in future and what to do right now"
but we should look at
"what to do now to make a better future"

indeed, it doesn't have any clear objective but just a fade motif
however, looking future and doing something to achieve that for some people are not applicable
people that live in poverty often doing this and failed a lot.
because what they should do is always undone because of their problems
living in a overwrought life too always failed peoples archiving their dreams

but doing what is "now" often make some people with efforts to live their dreams
doing the best in the live brings more opportunity for each diligent person
to live the life now and living to the fullest always make us better
and living like that brings the clouds away before the dreams of peoples

and people should know that fate doesn't really carved in our life, soul, or blood since we were born
fate is just where we were born, when we were born, how we were raised, and what obstacles that we face
there are no such things as born to be in heaven or to be in hell
we can always change fate.
Life is about cause and effect, yin and yang
all hardship today is chances for tomorrow's rainbow

So people fate do change if we are doing right things for better tomorrow
...

p/s: sorry if you readers don't know what i'm talking about
:p

Today ...

suddenly posting 2 update today...

Anyway, waiting for my friend to print his work this early morning,

I unwrap the present which we receive yesterday

both book seems very useful
winning the 2nd runner up for Innovation was quite a joy for me

and winning these books will help me learn the action research earlier

Well lets move on, 

after lecture, when to some counseling session

turn out, it was good and relieving 

some "things" were playing in my mind again

something long forgotten 

anyway, looking forward for my second session

Later this evening after sending some papers to the lecturer,

went to the cafe and watch the news

suddenly saw the aunt that I haven't see quite some times

and when I went to buy the drink,

she said that

"uncle will never joke with you, nor chat with you as his time is already come" 

listening those words addresses to me, I felt that she still miss him and suddenly

I feel very sorry to her as I can't say anything

the "condolence" word were so hard to be spoken

and I'm very sorry for that
All I can do is just pray and hope the best for him and his family

As today is the first day of fasting for the Muslims,

Wishing you a happy Fasting month :)

good night :)

Writing in the morning

It suddenly appear to me that I have to write this before I forgot about it :)
Last night or just now, I was dreaming a bad dream ...
although it was a good dream at the beginning
I was very scared to tell her that I broke her things.

A typical me,
broken something doing like nothing
but scared to death actually

well it turns out that is the only thing came out of the head..
but wait,
recently, I feel like I wanna get somebody
to talk with, to share with...
I just need that things..
because I don't recall being me.. :(

But then, I'll have this counseling session
with the counselor today ..
hope it will relief me a little bit

Well, went to toilet just now
and all the idea was gone
with all the "things" haha

Good morning :)

What If

What if today is my last day?

would you be good to me..? 

making sweet memories for me to bring along?

or painful reality to die with

well, make people happy even just for once, 

maybe tomorrow they are the one who make you happy

or pray for you 

I had this weird dream,

people dying around me, 

the best to do is nothing

because I feel I couldn't do anything,

but a dying person that time say this to me,

"Would you like to smile and make some of us happy?"
That brings a lot of goodness actually.. (in my dream)

they die peacefully

and in the purification, the one die peacefully

will make the other calm and peaceful 

a simple smile help a lot,

what IF you help them ...
It sure be better... :)

Make people happy although you may in pain,
because your reward is big in heaven :)

Night people :)

First time lapse.. lol

It been a while since I got the idea of time lapse..

but doing it was never easy.. manually ... even more difficult 

but moving on.. here is the product... 

needs more reading and practicing in future

is the picture moving.? if not.. click the picture or save it as .gif

have a nice weekend people.

Good morning.. :)

more are coming :P

Long ago, my hobby is..

It been years,

as long as I can remember, 

I have wrote  a few story during my primary school

but then I don't know where did I put it

And during my secondary school, 

it  begin to fade, but still I managed to write some

but then, it happen again, 

I have no idea where did I keep it., 

Its like you keep a treasure without making the map

then for sure it disappear 

Writing was never too lame 

and never too bore

but time and commitment is something hard to gain

During my primary education, 

I myself managed to enter a Japanese Malaysia Education Road show

where my story and my painting is taken and displayed on the exhibition

and taken to the other school too...

Secondary education was just ordinary,

compete on a few contest but never won anything

but I never participate the school competition actually

only participate the non-school contest

Until my last year at the school, 

managed to write something for a writing contest,

but it turns to be a international contest among students around the Asian 

or something like that.

That is the point when I suddenly eager to write again

Listed as the consolation prize receiver,

I never feel like losing

Consolation is still a great work among the Asians

Then again, there were another international level contest coming,

I entered it and didn't win anything,

my friend Maegyvear and I however receive some certificate

and its international, well, it push up my co-curriculum a little bit that year

Well, summing up,

Writing need reading and reading make good writing

in many chances, the early writing is mostly the same with what we read

until times of writing the and reading, we will gain our own style or writing

the punchline is very important but writers frequently use hard words to be decoded. 

well in other words, difficult grammar to be understood by others.

In some case I do it too

Well, people, never give up on your writing,

Good luck :)

Misophobia... anyone.??

Misophonia is Greek meaning an “extreme dislike of sound” and is a term first used by the US scientists Pawel and Margaret Jastreboff in 2001. However, misophonia is not just the dislike of sound. To suffer from it is to avoid the sound or situation by way of using an unpleasant or punishing response.

Misophonia first affects sufferers at a young age, around 10-12. Common trigger sounds are connected with eating and breathing. The reaction starts with the sound and often develops to include actions associated with the sound and even anticipation of those actions. The closer the sufferer is emotionally to the “trigger” person, the more offensive the sound tends to be. The trigger sound can create an overwhelming desire to flee the vicinity of the sound or a desire to do extreme violence to the “trigger person”.

It can be identified when these negative reactions, as a result of exposure to sounds, would not result from a non-sufferer. Symptoms such as discomfort, stress, anger, anxiety and fear become apparent before an emotional outburst.

Some of the sound triggers are soft sounds or eating and bodily noises, such as coughing, breathing, sniffing or snoring. Audio and visual stimuli can also trigger the same reaction. Not every sufferer is affected in the same way or by the same sound. Some may be unaffected or slightly effected by trigger noises that torment others.

Misophonia sufferer’s lives are greatly affected in a negative manner by sounds not significant to other people. It is important to note that it can affect their everyday life and it is not the loudness of noise that is the problem but rather the existence of the noise in the first place. Activities such as driving a car, shopping or mowing the lawn can also be agonising. It can even result in unemployment, reduced social interactions and the breakup of a family.

Misophonia is a newly recognised condition that remains little studied and poorly understood. It is not unusual for patients’ problems to be simply ignored with no help offered. Many GP’s are unaware of the condition and sufferers are often told to “get over it”. Patients lucky enough to be diagnosed have their complaints classified as psychological or behavioural problems and are treated accordingly to this diagnosis.

Do you think you may have Misophonia? Do you find it impossible to sit in the same room as a noisy eater, or someone who continually coughs out loud?

By Clarissa Waldron

Its Saturday and I'm feeling good

Morning :)
Although its almost noon :p

today, summing up the whole week,

Glad to have many friend

doing so many things in a week

making people feeling weak and tired,

but then, God have send me, 

you,you,you and that's right, its you

people around you and people at your back

God give you present when you wake up

and more when you talk, laugh and cry

Opportunity always come,

not once but times, 

some will be the same while some is not

but it is in your hand

Grab it or let it go with the wind

For the leaving opportunity,

crying over it will never make it come back, 

but sometimes, it will come back

Don't know what I am talking about?
Well, its okay, let me unveil this mystery

Its about "Penyingkiran" or in English, dismissal

the new student prank always make some tears

in time of danger or trouble,

we always save ourselves, but not the other

to think and to act is all for ourselves in that time

some may be good

but people always take advantage on them

them willing to go for the sake of other,

but the self essential people don't know that

the dreams and tears that these humble people let go

well, people, think about the other around you

you may not see, but its happening

well another thins is,

be humble and be strong  ...
Have a happy weekend :)