:: For a friend like you ::

There is a story, its from my words, but it is real, fake but it is true..
This is a letter to a friend....

" Friend, i wrote this from my deepest though. I know people must say that I am only playing around just like before. But, take this, I am serious while I'm playing around. In that my playful time, I am reading you, manipulating myself, so that you will look me as no harm. And I'm very glad to see you happy, deep in my though, glad to see you smile.

Friend, the oldies day that we've been through, I glad I can walk beside you or in the real terms, I am glad because you are willing to go just beside me. Your smile is my addiction. You glance always make me smile. Being alone, makes me feels empty. That's why I always play with you. I play because I wanted to see you smile.

Friend, sorry because some I'm acting over the limit. Sorry for making you feel bad. Make you angry. But take my words. I doesn't mean it. I just wanna make you happy but maybe i do it in the wrong way. Have faith in me my friend, I never wanna make you down.

Friend, I need you in my life. Because without you, my life would be an empty space. I mean it, REALLY EMPTY. A heart without vessels, the sky without air. A total white screen. I need you to hold my hand, make me smile..... and a reason to live.
There is another story for you my friend, the other day, when you cried, i tried to make myself foolish, making some foolish funny.. so that you can smile and have guts to continue living. If you smile, I will be going back happily, but if you never smile, then my life would be suck. Doomed.
There were sometimes, you see me laugh and laugh and laugh. It doesn't mean I am happy actually. I always afraid to lose you. And there is sometime, you see me happy though actually I'm in a great problem or in a great sadness. I always smile because, I hope people seeing my smile will smile and spread my smile to the whole world. So that men would be happy.

Friend, I'm afraid to lose you, because I need you, because you are my reason to live.."

sincerely

Nicholas

:::::: before MEMORIES after ::::::

"Long time ago until now

I always...
wanna take care of you

but I never tell

because I know
I am nobody

to live with you
is what I am dreaming
to satisfy you is my priority
but sorry

I am just a box of sand and you..
are the sun
you ray satisfy me a lot"

XD hahahaha
found it on someone blog
for my friends...
I miss you all..
I do care about all of you,
it just i can't contact you..
make jokes with you ..
be blessed
God be with you all :D

its a long..
long time i had not write anything

actually..

this entry this time for a few people

for some reason

for a few reason

first,

about love...

its worth all
or nothing

love may be good or bad..

letting go...

sometimes worth better

note that

your love worthy

when the other give their love in return..

second,

yes,
love is quite playful
yet it quite bitterfull too..

trusting somebody with your love

may be a gamble..

they could hold your love forever

or throw it away when they feel it burden them

some say trust is the key

and it is right,
but there are many more key actually..
but trust in God..

you'll find yours

someday soon, eventually..
:D

third,

open your eyes wide

increase your ears range of hearing
look what people are doing
listen what are they saying..

look and hear what you are in them..

you are something..

someone...

precious in their heart..

don't ever end up

disbelieving you are unworthy in people eyes..
because in front of me..

you are something..
precious and worthy ..
and in front of God too..

and fourth,

read this story,

if a baby girl born by her mother

named after her father's name

raise up by her parents..

when she grows up,

she meet a guy,

and she loves him..

then she leaves his parents..

forever...

but she still lives in the world...

believing all her soul in the guy....

the world still..

make them grow old and dies...

in the end is she belongs to his father or the guy...??
and don't b a fool to say that she is belong to the guy..

she always belongs to her father although she left him for so long..

because his Father never leaves her...
:D

fifth..
end of entry .. :D

~~ Please ~~

ishk3x..

na...

durang mo balik sudah semua...

T.T

sa nangis la ni ..

lol

I am...

you should read the previous post

to understand this

I think ...

I am O

then tell me yours..
:D

:: the World ::

Naaaaa...

the tajuk is not berkaitan actually...

LOL..XD

just because it is Sunday..

actually..

i want to say this such a long2 ago ..
lol

its about sharing .. hearing and listening..

somebody say their experience

their sadness, happiness, point of view

anything... and of course there will be someone listening to it..

the first person is a teller..

men in such a condition..

or lets label it as A

meanwhile, the second person is a listener..

just hearing the story..

and sometimes give their opinion..

and lets give the label O to it..

lets say.....

there will be more person A labelled as
B and AB

no need to label people as C

because there is no different actually
lol..

one day

A feel so sad about his sick father..

then she went to O her long best friend

and tell everything..

after that she feel a little bit better..

because she had lost something pounding in her heart..

not long after that..

B feel sick of his other friend..

He walked in the garden

trying to make peace in his heart..

by a little accident..

B found O..

they became a friend...

B have trust in O eyes...

then he just simply tell his heavy burden to O

and as the story end the burden become lighter..

in the other day ..

the AB is become tension because all of her problem
her emotion is just in the tip to burst..

but she saw O..

smiling to her..

then she realize that O was her long lost friend..

they chat and laugh all day long ..

O saw the problems in AB eyes..

then O entertain her..

on the way home..

AB feel so calm..

Then O walked home too...

O keep remembering A, B and AB

O feel so pity on them..

but then..

O IS alone..

with nobody to talk with..

with no one to tell

by keep hearing the other problem

just adding more burden on O shoulder
more wound in O heart..

but then O forget about the others' problem..

then O forgot about his too..
O then smile again ..
because by just listening..

His pain had reduced too..

:D

"END"

(Thanks for reading)

:: Its Tuesday ::

:: yeah ::

pelik

selasa sudah

lol

hari ni ada jamuan kelas

lol..

makan jak la sa pok ni

teda duit kan .. hahaha

Labour Day..??

hahaha

bagus juga ada ni cuti untuk dorang ni..

yg bukan labour pun tacuti juga

hahaha

Sia mo cerita ni ..

sa malas sudah mo belakon..

buli ka sa berenti blakon

kalo la sy dapat tanya bapa sa sikarang

hahaha

anak yang baik bah sa ni

dulu da ada cakap..

"macam mana buruk pun orang...
kita mesti terima..

kagalon ka..

kigutuk ka..

baik ka... the other side ka...

terima jak..

kita kena benci ka..

asal kita terima dorang"
(selepas ditranslet p bm)

mungkin itu la yang sa perlu ctau ma anak sa nanti kan..
(kalau no ada)

sebab tu la dari sekolah lagi sa kawan jak sama semua..

jarang sa nda dapat kawan

KECUALI

2 orang yang nda mo terima sa..

kali da nda besa ma sa kan..

biar jak la..

Atau...

sa nampak mata da...

ada unsur2 yang sa nda suka..

jadi sa malas la mo bkawan ma tu org..

kalo sa bkawan pun sa tpaksa blakon di depan da..

2 la yg sa malas tu

Apa yg sa nda suka nampak dari mata urg yg sa nda suka(lol)

1. bangga diri

2. pandang rendah ma orang lain

3. ada udang disebalik batu

tu 3 jak la..

asal lengkap checklist d atas memang sa malas la..

sebab biar sa try ikhlas mo p bkawan

tetap juga dorang yang nda mau..

lol..

sapa gia d suruh pandai baca mata org..

hahahha lol .. nanti petang lagi la sa post2 ni .. hahaha

bye.. tQ ah..
muah ..

TERUK ni an... =="

ni la ni ..

sa ingat sudah apa yang sa mo post dari duuulu lagi ...

sa curi dari tempat orang lu..
post yang paling emo..

hahahha

"ui kamu(anda semua kecuali saya)

dingar lu ni crita bah..

siou la..

memang nda siok ni cerita ni ...

tapi bukan cerita ni plak ...

baca jak..

jangan bah kamu tidak menghargai apa yang kamu sudah ada
maksud saya dari pelbagai sudut

kenapa mesti langgar peraturan

mungkin kamu tebiasa yang tinggal di rumah saja kan ..

tu la kamu manja..

tapi agak2 la...

pg mana pun kamu mesti juga ikut adat orang bah

trus sa nampak kamu ni macam sumbung2 bah pula

kamu ingat idung kamu mancung kamu cantiklah..?

siou jak la.... kalau muka cantik tapi perangai macam kambing ...

kerbau juga jadinya nanti..

apa...?? kamu mo marah sudah .?? mo branti baca sudah ..??

sekejap juga kamu fedap...

dasar nda da kesabaran kamu ni ...

buang jak pg laut.. baru tau....

kalau kamu susah kamu baik la kunu sama urg...

trus kalu senang kasi tinggal jak semua..??

bagus lagi tu keldai o...

sa lagi malas kalo ada urg yanzg perasan dia matang sudah

dia cakap sia mc budak2..??

sapa la yg bubudak tu ah..

bingung betul....

padahal sa nda pernah cakap yg buruk pasal kau...
adalah pula saya cakap ..

tapi mmng semua sudah tau juga tu.... nda payah kc tau pun org len tau sudah gaya ko ..

lol ... ko mengumpat sa ni kan .. ?

sa nda mngumpat ah....

mulut bau katam kau jak yg babau tu ...

lol ...

ko nda pandai sedar ka ni ... branti la kau jadi tukang batu api org...

tinguk.. kau pakai org lain bah mau c batu api yg lain ... talampau juga kamu ni ...

kalah-kalah hantu bah kau ni...

kamu ingat kmu boleh hidup sendiri la.. ??

matilah kamu kalau kamu hidup sendiri saja....

bagus kalu kamu di rumah ..

ini bukan rumah kamu bah ni ...

kalau kamu turus mau benci org lain memang kamu sot...

paduli la apa yg kamu mo cakap..

sa nda kisah juga..

sot.!!!

sIt.. babai..."

hahhhaa
sIt babai

ni sa ambil dari blog urg lain ni .. hahhaa

tapi biarlah rahsia tuan punya blog tu

nanti da saman sa plak ..

hahahha

bah,

bye

XD

sot...

sa post jak la

kemarin sa temimpi2 ni

sa rindu da ma mama sa..

trus sa pulang kunu pg rumah ..

skali sampai, tu dreber bas menangis ni ..

da cakp.. "siou dia"

trus sa tanya d napa..?

trus 1 bus tu hairan,

dorang tanya sa nda tau ka...?

rupa2nya, sa punya mama ma bapa teda sudah kunu ..

palis2...

silakak betul tu mimpi g2.... betul2 sa nda suka ni ...

trus yg baru2 lagi

sa mimpi kunu,

sa duduk2 nda tau d mana

trus datang family sa,...

dorng cakap mau monunang untuk sa....

LOL

ahahha sa ingat btl2...

yg kna tunang kunu kawan sa juga ni ...

lagi la...

melampau juga betul ini mimpi sa ni..
hahahaha

harap nanti malam sa dapat mimpi yg bagus la

hahahha

lol .. mo p mandi lu

bye... thanks

:: Love actually ::

tada....

its a movie actually ..

a nice one...

made for christmass

but i just wanna share it ..

here is just a part of the movie

hahaha

this is just some of the scene..

:)

now...

to my main point ..

life is just like that ...

unexpected

unbelievable

life is sweet...

although it may be bitter..

but then... life must go on ..

:)

Got it..??

i hope you readers got it ;)

hehehe..

XD thanks for reading and watching .. :)