Maybe its my fault

Firstly, i would like to apologies to anyone that I have make them sad, mad or whatever it is. It is something that i can't bear it anymore that i can't even say to anyone. Now i'm kinda people that lose his FRIEND. Back then it was good to have them. But now, emptiness have come back in my very own heart. Its some pain that i couldn't show it to the others. And this emptiness continuously stabbing my heart. If i can just tell it to the world i will cry loudly through all the earth. Now they seems going far, far away that i could not hear their voices talking to me. If I can just cry like anyone else when they are sad rather than smiling and laughing... IF I CAN JUST CRY....IF..