Exhausted to the max

Right now 

I suddenly woke up yet still sleepy 

after an hour nap, I cannot go to sleep again

maybe the body is just too exhausted

well sometimes it happen to me, feeling exhausted but can't take some rest

this week is so exhausting, not to tell it loud but just to share

the body had been working from sunrise to sunset and it goes on in the night

such a long preparation for such a short time event 

the big event has finally finish 

but still, tomorrow will be another event, morning and night, 

and in Saturday, there will be two event and I had to lose one because it clash..

anyway another job come to me just a few hour and it will be a hard one

it seems writing can make me sleepy again, 

and the thunder is striking, maybe it will rain tonight

hope so, 

as for life these, I feel wonderful and meaningful 

as the hole is now filled ..

I hope I'll dream a good one... night :)

|Those Scraggy Hand|

And this is the real life situation I'll wanted to write for quite sometimes

Her skinny body and dark skin

maybe is it because of her gene 

Is not about the weather or whatever 

It just she is born dark

But skinny is not really in her gene

she had live in harsh and hard life

losing love of mother in early age, 

taking care of her newborn brother

and maybe back in her house, 

she had to takeover the housework too

Bill Gates once said, 

"If you're born poor, it's not your mistake, but, if you die poor, it's your mistake"

in certain condition, 

this is really true, but now, this girl, 

she doesn't even know,

or honestly she doesn't know it yet

how strong she is to carry such loads

Born in poor family doesn't mean you can't be rich 

but poverty itself, always tie all the poor to its root

and the richness always shed their face, not to help the poor

If and only if 

I have more in this life, 

I'll give the more to those who need

because seeing them life in such life making me wanted to cry

and choked me deep inside

but if you don't move up, who will help them

if you don't be rich who will even look at them

"That skinny little lady, had choked me to tears, but this tears don't even worthy of her burden, there's nothing I can do, but to wipe it away and live this life better, so soon when I'm successful I'l be able to help one"

~~ She Doesn't Know It ~~

I always wanted to lingers beside her

Her lips, her cheek,

Make me wonders every time

What complexion is this,

make me forgot how to forgot

and remembering what not to

Sharing some likes and time,

walks we went through,

talks we enjoyed

moments we shared

The moment I'm without you

is the moment I need you

Now this time, 

Would you be,

will you be, beside me, 

all the time?

Because all I'm thinking of is you

Some poem during my secondary school that somehow I jotted it down :)

Concerning all the factor

Considering all the factor,
Should I open another blog
just to satisfy my writing desire?
And  if I do, would I have the time and commitment
to write and update the blog then.

up until this moment I am the owner of two blog
my first domain is this, the blog that you're reading right now
http://kulaskung.blogspot.com/
and the other one is this
http://adayaphotototellphotoblog.blogspot.com/
a blog about picture I've captured
giving up is an option but I never see that useful for me
blog that I didn't update doesn't mean I don't like,
it just I don't have the right things to share
So I am Considering another blog actually right now.

and there is another thing that I consider right now,
and my heart is shouting to make it done  ..
but I should wait for the right moment to make it right
That's all for now... merci beaucoup mes amis

Writing During Hard TIme

view from my house (click to enlarge)

So this is the time when I though that life is hard,
Sudden observation making me feel bad,
but still it is me that make it bad...
done all the things, it just my spirit that occur does not in me
maybe it when away searching for something meaningful

So what is so meaningful that my spirit doesn't give a chance to the observation,
#friend #relationship #social #argument #family
when life seems very busy, I still think about these things and forgot about the busy mode

but somehow i hope that I will managed to gain some spirit in the morning and through the day.
Blessed be my day and yours too

Thanks to anyone that make my day :)

Rice don't make you FAT

better write this while it still on my mind..

long ago, there's some dialogue of dieting people who doesn't take the rice
and these fact have been there for years because internet was not widely used as for today
and then as the time goes by, I think I should say it here, now and now

"Rice don't make you fat"
in my age of 4 until 12,
there's nothing that i didn't eat,
I'll consume whatever and whenever it happens to be there..
luckily, my body never been so fat....
and those year's diet is simple, rice, fish and some vegetables

it was years when you eat what you grow
and not eat what you buy
searching the buffalo and doing gardening
was one of the routine although not everyday...
but walking around and playing around is my favourite

well, cut the crap,
it started during my 13 and later on,
where boarding school is my second home during that time,
food are prepared and nicely done.
for these early three years,
rice is the only thing I loved so much...
going on the 4th,
I eat same amount of rice but double or even triple
red meat, chicken and the other's
delicious and very tempting

(pause)

well cut again...
we go straight to the point
or to the main point of this entry
nowadays chicken or cow or anything,
use to have some injection or anything to make it grow bigger
in short time
even vegetables too

therefore, as we eat them,
we will get the same effect too...
hence, people will become bigger in short time

But listen to this, burn more than you eat is always right
from yesterday, today and beyond,
so, burn some of calories today... :)

So, here is something I found on the net,
"eat fish, you'll grow taller,
eat meat, you'll go muscular,
eat fruits, you'll be radiance,
eat vegetables, you'll be healthier,
but if you don't eat rice,
you'll die believing you are fat"
haha night :)

Endure Life

lately, many thing happen in life..
mostly sorrow and bitter...
but then, no matter how much the sorrow or the bitter,
there will always be happiness that wash away all the things..

Friends, family and church
are things in my life that will always make me smile
although sometimes, there will be no smile but still,
they can always wash away my sorrow, my sadness away
my doubt and worries are flushed away
and the most important thing,,...

I feel love in the air .. :)
Good night .. :)

Good things and bad things

well good morning

taking some time to update life

before making some lesson plan later on

well, lets go straight forward

the good thing is, 

there will be no more guilty 

and no more fake smile

Its have been settled 

and thank God for that

the bad things is..

friend got into trouble 

forgot to reply an easy message

the they got into trouble 

and I'm very sorry to that .. 

If you are reading this, 

let me treat you someday .. :)

well life must go on .. .

and life should be just once

because once is the pain we will able to bear.. :)

Good morning :)

Fate lies between the clouds

It somehow I managed to remember what I want to write last time
and yeah .. Its morning everybody....
It just the time setting in my blogger is not synchronized with my real time
but for real ? That doesn't seems to be a problem for me

looking back at the title,
nobody knows the future
even the future teller said they cannot see it clearly

we didn't really look at
"what to be in future and what to do right now"
but we should look at
"what to do now to make a better future"

indeed, it doesn't have any clear objective but just a fade motif
however, looking future and doing something to achieve that for some people are not applicable
people that live in poverty often doing this and failed a lot.
because what they should do is always undone because of their problems
living in a overwrought life too always failed peoples archiving their dreams

but doing what is "now" often make some people with efforts to live their dreams
doing the best in the live brings more opportunity for each diligent person
to live the life now and living to the fullest always make us better
and living like that brings the clouds away before the dreams of peoples

and people should know that fate doesn't really carved in our life, soul, or blood since we were born
fate is just where we were born, when we were born, how we were raised, and what obstacles that we face
there are no such things as born to be in heaven or to be in hell
we can always change fate.
Life is about cause and effect, yin and yang
all hardship today is chances for tomorrow's rainbow

So people fate do change if we are doing right things for better tomorrow
...

p/s: sorry if you readers don't know what i'm talking about
:p

Today ...

suddenly posting 2 update today...

Anyway, waiting for my friend to print his work this early morning,

I unwrap the present which we receive yesterday

both book seems very useful
winning the 2nd runner up for Innovation was quite a joy for me

and winning these books will help me learn the action research earlier

Well lets move on, 

after lecture, when to some counseling session

turn out, it was good and relieving 

some "things" were playing in my mind again

something long forgotten 

anyway, looking forward for my second session

Later this evening after sending some papers to the lecturer,

went to the cafe and watch the news

suddenly saw the aunt that I haven't see quite some times

and when I went to buy the drink,

she said that

"uncle will never joke with you, nor chat with you as his time is already come" 

listening those words addresses to me, I felt that she still miss him and suddenly

I feel very sorry to her as I can't say anything

the "condolence" word were so hard to be spoken

and I'm very sorry for that
All I can do is just pray and hope the best for him and his family

As today is the first day of fasting for the Muslims,

Wishing you a happy Fasting month :)

good night :)