Damaged Laptop

Hello everybody

its been a while from the last post

actually there are so many things I wanted to share

but recently the old laptop face some difficulties 

It cannot boot properly and the wireless is automatically turn off

From the first sigh, I think it was the battery or the charger caused it that much 

but then I can confirm a thing, 

it was the viruses.. 

the reason ? 

Its simple, because this is the second time

and to be frank, my instinct said it is from the same computer 

but from different host or how should I make it, it is from different person this time

so the solution is easy (= =)

I need to format it again... 

with the cd which I don't know where.. 

and some appropriate windows

so, It will be some time for me to get you again, thanks 

The time freeze

The morning freeze

Not because the climate or anything turned the water into ice

or something similar

The time goes so slow that I can see the sun ray run

and the hummingbirds flap their wings so slowly

The rain drop so slow that I can dodge every tiny bit of it

and the wind blow so slow that when the paper blow I can just walk to get it back

The night is so long that the oil lamp need to be filled endlessly 

and I finished to make a two pages wish twice when the shooting star appear

I've been listening for the song endlessly

the same song that I never bored listening

and it reminds me of you all the time 

Minute seems forever and forever seems a sad day

because there just me and me

There's no scent of you, voices of you, smile of yours'

so I'd like to say something
"The time freeze without you here beside me"

Sing along...

I could only wish, 

I'll last forever

So I could see you 

Smiling wide to me

The day I find you,

There's angel came

Telling that you the 

The one I need

I hold your hand

Like it will lose tomorrow 

You will see me smiling 

Putting the ring into you

The day that i found you

There's an angel came

Telling that you're the one 

The one I need

Running Away | (2007) | Unpublished Short Story

Running Away | 2007 | Short Story

The sky were gloomy as it always does,

I creep to the roof to see

If I could catch glimpse of the morning sunlight

But the clouds never give me chance

It turn out to be dark and murky outside

The street lamps light up the roads

It is the least that they can do,

although they are nobody

they still light someone's life

Still, I am seeking to see the sunlight everyday..

Father use to tell me stories that sunlight turns the ghost away,

weaken the evil and demon, so that they can only whisper and not to be seen

I used to wonder in any chances for the people I meet everyday could be a soul reaper

But maybe it just some old folk's story to scare children like me long ago

The room in front of my windows suddenly light up

It's her. Beautiful girl in my grade, maybe not the most.

But for me, she's the one. I could barely speak up in front of her.

Her smile make me stoned, something that my vision can't stand against

Going by the school bus is the routine I hate the most

with noisy people speaking loud as if their friend is miles away

The yellow bus carrying bunch of middle school student is always late

and the teachers are yelling at us every morning too...

They should yell at the late bus not us..

Monday up to Friday

I dislike them a lot, I already know that stuff they teach

I already read them, tested some of the lab stuff,

I know the drill, I just to lazy to make my marks beyond everyone

I always do my paper halfway done instead of doing it all right

Grandpa always smile although I'll only get 50 for my tests or exams

Grandma tell me to make it done but I always insist with thousand of excuses

I don't mind people calling me names like 50, or halfway mind

Because I know the arrogant girl can get 80 top and never more than that

     "You should join the play" Heather voice struck me.

     "I always see you playing the violin" the girl next door said again.

So all this time she was watching me too? I couldn't say a word but leave as before...

Shocked maybe or too scared..

My way home is much colder

Silence is my companion all the way to the door bell 

Grandma ask ask me something bout school but I just node and enter my room

Fascinated by her compliment  earlier

I begin to act as nothing had happened 

but my hand were already unbrief the violin and unconditionally 

play them slowly

As my finger play the "Adagio"

I closed my eyes and the music takes me away..

the background music seems to merge with my play

and the world had leave my life.. 

I'm in my own world

where darkness can't be in shadows, 

where loud talking muted

and where no body could physically and mentally touch me... 

Then suddenly those feeling stop.

there's something sound nice to hear, 

soft as the pillow, 

smooth as the silk, 

tempting as the delicious food, 

light as the feather

I open up my eye,

I could feel the beach.. 

I searched for the sound, 

Music never heard before, 

I bet it is not from the stereo, 

The stereo played junk over years now

I curiously seek for the music

when I find her windows is wide open not as usual,

unlike my broken windows

to hear her playing the black and white keys

is amazing and unusual too 

we never had any music class except for the recorder thing and drum

guitar are the least they can afford or who knows.. 

It must be her mother who teach her to play that beautiful 

So beautiful so that you'll able to take shower with the moon lit 

That the sea breeze will fly you to the sky... 

Then I realise, it was the exact same song I played not long ago, 

The Moonlight

The music stop and she went to the windows.. 

She spark some lovely smile

Then unconsciously my lips make some smile

something that I didn't do for quite some times now.. 

It was years ago I've been smiling like this.. 

When my father finally rest assure in peace mother went to heal herself

to run away from those memories, searching for love to take on the pain

then nobody know a thing I guess.. 

     "Both of us can make better music. Because two is better than one, together is more fun than alone, 

      we can run to the world we want together" 

Silently I node and smile,

the greatest way to end the day ever

In smiles I went down to have the dinner as grandma called out my name 

They look fine though I knew they are wondering with my smile

Day after that is better, 

I have friend to go anywhere, 

well our routine is the same so with our time table

lack of option make all student have no chance in choosing what we want to learn

we played our tools facing each other. 

although we are in different room we can hear each other, 

we can see each other

through two different windows

we can run to our world. 

undisturbed. 

and become what we want

We can play "Only time" and make some duet from it

we can play "Love story" by a famous French guy

sometimes we feel sad but then happiness will never failed to come

my day with her is falling in love with her again and again

and not just with her, with her music too

Something engraved in my heart, 

someday soon I'll ask her the millions dollar question 

when the time come, I'll make sure she deserve a ring on her finger

but those are a long way to go

*****

Class is boring as usual

but the only playing instrument teacher come into the class

everybody know what coming

so do I

     "So as usual, there will be music performance. But I have a request. This year a student or two must join

      the performance"

She raises her hand so I follow her and raise mine too. Everybody were so shocked as I raise my hand.

Because no one, besides her ever hear me play and in front of many people I never act as I am worthy to be adored

*****

Everyday after school,

we will stay back and it just a duo 

the other were practising something else..

some of them are acting 

and the other are singing

She and I 

play beautifully. No, its not beautiful. it more like wonderful

our music cannot be compared by anyone now

music that can make you run away from all the things

all the things called problems and other things

*****

The night of greatness have come

I've been waiting for her on the backstage 

I'm so worried she didn't come yet

She told me earlier that she will come quite late because there's something 

something she had to do

Maybe it was her sick father

the only family she had..

*****

     "No one know what they can do, no one ever heard of them before and no one know who they are.

      On this last performance, the stage and the time, we give to the Next Door Duo" they are calling for us

When I come out to the stage, I see her coming. From the other end of the stage.

Then we started to play. I don't know why. But her play is different..

It is sad. very sad, it makes my memory play the time 

when daddy leave us for eternity

and mourning can be heard loud and clear

when no people for you to run 

no one. no one

So we played in tears, running away from the stage, 

we played until the song is done

until we open my eyes and see nothing but tears from the audience 

All of them we clapping with tears

*****

I couldn't see her anywhere

I tried to search for her

so hard but I can't

So home we off to go

*****

When we reach home, there's so many people next door

I run as fast as I could ever run

I come to see bodies 

It was her father and it's her

I fall by my knees

crying 

unlike when my father died, where no tears we dropped 

It flows like river, falling down like waterfall

Her father died by his illness

People find her body outside the house

No one know either she is going out or coming home

My feeling tells me she was hit by the car before 

but who is playing with me then?

So I take it she was hit when I see her nowhere last night

The next day, the music teacher come and hug me

with tears and sob

     "I'm very sorry to let you play alone, I couldn't tell you earlier. And last night you were playing fantastic 

      As she is playing with you, and no one say you are a freak any more. Although you were playing alone

      people know you are amazing  last night though she is not there"

Lightning hits me. It was never me alone played last night

It was her and me

and to make certain things clear, my play is never perfect without her 

so I faint after that

*****

We have moved to the next town

I had to forget all of those memories they say

but the things is I can't and I wouldn't 

because I know.. 

Whenever my violin play a song, 

I know and I always hear piano playing as well

So I know she never left me, 

all I need to do is to run away with my violin and meet her

In the world only we know

path only we recognize 

Where she and me will never part..

The end 

Nicholas A (2007)

Edited for spelling error (2014), 

Because grammatical error is perfect for me
This is not true story but maybe in other part of the world this may

and I wrote this 7 years ago

so this is it

Its been busy yet lovely...

yep.. it been busy yet lovely

it been busy weeks from the beginning of the year till now

many things to do and to be done

this brain of mine seems working in a strange way .. 

yet it still doing its work properly with minor error

however, God always have a great plans, 

surprises and good news were also coming in .. 

and I wanted to say this from the beginning of the year, 

thank you God for such a lovely year.. 

Thanks for the presents.. 

I mean a lot of thanks... 

words can tell my feeling right now, 

But to be just I'm feeling happy and thankful right now

This year is my final year in this campus 

Yet it is still a long way to go 

This year will be sweet year and sad year in the end

I know it... I know it.. 

But until then .. 

I will laugh and smile, 

eat and cook, 

run and walk

sing and talk with you, 

all of you brothers, sisters, aunties, uncles, 

I know God had plan something beautiful :)

Night all .. God bless you .. :)

Place where I learn and play, knowing new people and learning about humanity

(click to enlarge)

The Bumpy road I've taken

Empty paths leave spaces between the road

The Red Forest Tree seems occupying the view

Some may feel nothingness or even endure blackout

while some people see it as a wonderful journey and though road to walk or maybe run

Long time ago, I choose some bumpy road, 

I see many dark corner and white section of the road

I have see both wonderful things and awful moment

A long dark corner have been coming to once

but I've managed to overcome that

After the dark path, 

the other coming dark part were easier to walk on

because there always voices and hands to hold on to

and most of the time, 

believing there will be a white section at the end of the corner

were worthy to do

because they always real and always there

Life now is more likely to be more like a rainbow

not because the first path I choose 

It is because I rise every time I felt

and because those dark corner I've been through

Because when you believe there always be some power

working by it own way

in ways you couldn't ever imagine

I believe this is the God's plan for me

the greatest gift for me 

is the bumpy road I've choose long ago

that come to this beautiful story :)

Happy New Year 2014

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year 2014 everybody :)
Its been a great year last year and today I hope that this year will be even greater :)

Christmas was last week so meaning to say this picture coloured last week which also mean last year
So the picture above is kinda some drawing by me

using the pastel and it didn't turn out to be outstanding

It just turn out to be an ordinary wishing from me :)

Once again Happy New Year everyone :) 

A lot had happen but more are coming

The view at my village

The day will come when we regret the past and hoping for a better tomorrow

but why hesitate? 

Why wait tomorrow for a better day?
Why not today?

A saying once chimed in my eardrums, 

"yesterday is history, tomorrow a mystery. Now is present, why not open up your present?"

So people take the chance to see your lucky day present's. 

I wish you to have a good day and good luck in whatever you'll be doing today

Morning :)

P/s: see also this blog... thank you :)

You ... (^^,)

Seeking through the past year

You are just friend

but don't worry 

you are a lovely friend to start with.

But those walks and talks

the "play" and laughs... 

Make me wonder
Would there be any chance..

of you and me
together

forever

.....

But now it turn out to be

I resist my eager hand from send you messages

I trying to spell "the word" right

and trying to forget you 

but 

above all those things..

I always fail to do that 

like all the time I mean 

ALL the time

But it is indeed a sweet failure

You are precious to me 

because you ...
you are..

"The greatest gift from God to me"

Going out again

Greetings reader(s) 

This holiday went a little bit busy

by events and nothingness

Anyway,
This is the place I wrote before

for those who doesn't have any idea, 

This is the post.. ClickMe

So, 

after bringing the camera twice,

without the memory card,

This time

I manage to take a some images

well, its not just these two actually,

it just I too lazy to upload the other picture here..

maybe later or maybe soon

anyway,

running away from the internet is quite fun sometime

but writing here and there in the web seems quite hard to be left.. 

so, here am I writing about nothing

The main purpose of this update is just to show the picture ..

The first picture to be more precise..
anyway...
Night readers.. :)